aee's journal remind me of my grandpa
minggu lalu pas 4 tahun beliau passed away
mungkin klo diinget-inget gw lebih dekat ke opa daripada bokap ama nyokap
mungkin karena opa lebih caur + ngertiin gw..
kangen ketawa nya yang bikin nyokap gw marah2
kangen joke2 ga pentingnya tapi bikin gw ketawa
kangen ama nasehat2nya..
opa, i miss you :(

baru minggu lalu lo bilang sayang ma gw
hari ini lo bilang lo lagi telponan ama pacar lo
fuck! ngemeng doank emang lo..
tai ahh.. gw selalu kena kek gini mulu..
dan ama lo mulu!!
tai lo..

makin lama,gw makin ga betah tinggal di bandung
makin lama, makin gerah
makin lama,mulut cewe2 bandung makin tajem2
hey backstabber! you better back off!
huh..

anyway,kemaren balik ngampus gw hotspotan buat nyari bahan skripsi
sekalian menyendiri seharian,
akhirnya gw pegi ke ohlala,berhubung masih pagi
lumayan sepi pluss sinyal yang "excellent" ..

tiba2 ada cowo yang ngajak ngobrol
basa basi nanyain ada tisu
langsung gw jawab "sorry, adanya tisu bekas!"
ga penting emang jawaban gw,ya abis?
kedua kalinya dia dateng lagi ke meja gw..
"punya ym ga?gw xoxo..lo siapa?"
akhirnya gw kenalan ama tu orang..
gatau kenapa kok gw suka serem ya klo ada cowo yang ngajakin gw kenalan
pas gw sendirian..
suka kepikiran yang jelek2 gw
ya hipnotis lah
nipu lah..
ato yang terakhir emang ni orang iseng aja mo kenalan

kenapa skrg ini klo ada cowo yang pdkt atau ngajak gw kenalan
it freaks me out
apa karena gw masih rada sebel ama mantan?
apa karena gw dah ga napsu ama cowo?
huhuhuhuhuuhu..
well,boys will always be boys aite?

sabtu ini harus pegi lagi ke jakarta..
man,i hope i'll meet you there diddy!!
it's been 3 weeks

i don't understand bout man..
really..
when you holding it to tight,they'll dump you
but when you holding it to loose they'll fly away
i called my ex-boyfriend today because yesterday was his birthday
and suddenly he asked me this question:
"do you still love me? i want you back to me"
"do you want to go out with me tomorrow?maybe we can have a dinner?"
what a question???
after everything he did to me, he asked me that question?
okay, let me clear it
i was love him. hey,we were date for almost 2,5 years
but that question makes me think again
i'm scared to take this chance
i want to refresh myself after my last relationship with him
mungkin gw butuh introspeksi diri dulu..
gw udah cukup sakit lo gituin..
semua kebohongan dah cukup bikin gw belajar
we learn from our past right?